Last year, I wrote a post on my End of Year Confessions and man did it feel good to get those things off my chest and, based on other blogs that I follow, know that I was not alone in my I am so done-ness. We still have 19 wake-ups to go before the end of the year (which seems like an impossible, insurmountable number which I know is overly dramatic but whatever) but, like the kids, I am just so tired. And so done.
All of the things I wrote about in my Confessions post last year are still true. I’ve been eating an embarassing amount of frozen food. I looked at my calendar and realized that the number of free, no-plan weekends I’ll have this summer totals…two. I haven’t been to the gym in weeks. And so, I really only have one new thing to add to this year’s Confessions, but it’s a big one, and the main reason my blog has been so quiet this year – because my attention has been totally, completely elsewhere.
I’m taking a break from teaching.
Well, sort of. I am returning to the classroom in the fall as a student, which will be funded largely by teaching undergraduate French classes as I pursue my Master’s degree in French and Francophone Studies at Penn State University.
It’s been a long time coming – I told myself when I hired in at my current job that I would give myself five years. I wanted to fully cycle through a group of kids from start to finish, see how much I could really accomplish and teach them. As of this year, I’ll have done that and even though I go through the typical anxiety periods of Am I crazy for leaving a full-time job with salary and benefits to live the life of a poor college student again? I know that the choice I’m making is the right one. I am taking steps to better myself, which will in turn benefit my students when I return to the secondary classroom. I live and work only 20 minutes away from where I grew up and while there’s nothing wrong with that, at almost 29 years old (and marriage & maybe babies on the horizon) I know that I need to go knock out a few more adventures. It’s so easy to fall into the trap of thinking, Well, someday when I get my graduate degree… or Someday, I’d really like to move away and live in such-and-such city…but when is “someday”? It’s really true what they say – if you want something, you have to go and get it. Sometimes the best opportunities are the ones we create for ourselves.
So, that’s my confession – big changes are on the horizon! I am both excited and terrified; happy and sad. It’s been a mix of emotions and I’m really trying to not wish away my time here in Michigan because it will be gone before I know it. I do still plan on posting and sharing here; I am really looking forward to seeing what it’s like to teach college-level courses and how much of my high school teaching experience I can bring into this entirely new demographic.
Thanks for following along on this crazy journey and BONNE CHANCE as we finish up the end of this school year!